you were always waiting.

Gosh, im like nervous.
waited a long time for this.
What if i dont do well?
Wat if we dont get through?
Im afraid that it will be horrendous to listen.

Gaah! Friends ask me to chill but..
gahh.. hard.

Uh-oh

~Mustakim
Angel, I need U.
Wish me luck for tommorow guys. *Gulp!*

no one gonna

So i've heard from Helmi that there's this shop at bugis which can help make me a T-shirt.
18 bucks!!

Sounds tempting uh..
Still, i've got to get to the shop and ask.
Cheap aint always good.
Like sex. Cheap sex aint good. But Sex with ur partner, now that's something to die for..

~Mustakim.
Oh, Made a black shirt design. Should i make a white or a black one?
Hmm..

falling into your hands

Surprise picnic for Naz was great.
Great friends.
Good food.

Yeah, all of us enjoyed the day. Picnic, ate and such. Oh yeah, pool-ed after the picnic.
Lot's of fun.
So yeah, Yq. let's go yis safra soon yeah.

pics will be uploaded soon. at least, when i get em. heh.

love u guys

~Mustakim
feeling awful.
sore throat.
fever.
Gaah..

~ Girls just wanna have fun.
Women have a way of complicating things.
We'd kill for one.
still, we can't live without em.

Toot!

School's great.
D&T finishing soon.

Main point for this post...
NBSS holding site is HAUNTED.
Fuck yeah u read it right.

4 boys, planned to walk abt the school.
went to the 4th floor.
We were calm.. Till near the F&N room, everything felt so wrong.

A boy stood still, looking at the floor. He was quiet.
oh so quiet.

Points. 4 boys, a CLOSING DOOR. vulgarities and pictures.
Put em together.

everydoor is locked. at 4pm. still, a closing door?
Wtf...


~Mustakim
shit.. scary

gimme a scream guys!

Yeaaah!
Another jamm session. This time, with more songs and waaaay better.
I just feel so good la. Gosh that sounds wrong.
Finally. That's the word. Finally. =)

Night class tomorrow, anyone?

~Mustakim

Thanks Kenn for the advice. hah!
Study Mus, Study!!!

For a day.

racial harmony.

Picutes, it speaks.

Murnie, Fit cuzzie

Farah

Att, cute!

Asrizah!

yeap, Im the big bro

Nazeerah



Hidayah



Thank you =)



Cuzzie!



Jas =)



Kiki



Isya



Ain



nabilah! ;)



Izzati =)



Sygku. Haha! :D



Adik-ku syg (=



Dian =P



Fida



Tasha! Finally married.


~~~~

So yeah, that's that. More pics. Still waiting.
Pretty cool day. =)

Pretty lazy to write the details.


Just wanna say, 5 Tenacity! U guys rocks. Full house! Evryone wore Costumes.
It's gonna be a good 2 mths guys. Let's use all the time we got carefully =)

Oh, thanks to Miss Parhana. wait. Thx to Parhana for listening to me.
Vice versa u know, i help u, u help me. Yeah.
Well, maybe what u said is right. Wait, it's a girl thing. What do I know. Eh, I do know. Hah.
Yeah, maybe.. You know.. It worked. But it hurts like crap la Parhana... I bet it's gonna be worst on the actualy day. Hah.
Just have to prepare myself.
Thx again.

~Mustakim
Friends, I love u guys.
THIS FRIDAY. AAAHHHHH!!!!
Shit shit shit. 4 days. gaaahhh!! no!
haha.. Hope we're ready. All the best bros.

It was. :)

Something that I just have to say.

we used to share our day on the phone.
Sharing secrets. Helping one another with our problems.
U always give me courage and the faith that I need to carry on.

I still remember. When had a rough day, you would talk to me demanding me to cheer u up.
The laughter.. Oh how much I miss them.
I did sing for you. Even I know that I can't sing.

Remember when we first became friends? How shy was I.
I stared at you and at times u caught me. All u did was smile back to me.
Do you remember that? I did. Perfectly.
remembered when I teared for you?

Know what? U did set my soul alight.

Do you know how much I miss our bonding? It does not feel the same now. Not even a single bit.
You changed. Yes everyone does. I can't deny that I hate the way u r changed. Still, i just accept the way you are. Till now.
Cause that what friends do.
Remember how far we've been.
Do you want to end it this way? I certainly dont want it to be. But if we have to, at least not like this.
I just can't accept it to end this way.
Those words u told me are on my mind. Hearing em again and again.
It's not easy.

Remember all those good times, friend?
I did. Every single one of it...

Thanks for being my friend. Im glad that HE let our path cross. Im glad I found you.
I enjoyed every minute spent with you :)

A friend,
Mustakim.

ill never forget you

anywhere I roam

Practiced the performance with Khid and Khairi.
Go Khari! Prac those base.
Khid! Keep raping the guitar.
And me.. will prac the hell out for the tabla. hah.
=)

Poured heavily. Cik Man's van's engine died.
Was called to help. got my rain jack and off to the site.
There, pushed the van forward to a safer spot. Surprised that I can push the van. Hah!

Played sepak takraw with the class of 02 since the plan to go marina for the fireworks was cancled.
It has been some time since I last takraw-ed. Missed the ball, many bad judgements and stupid mistakes made. But it was fun. Thanks guys.
Met Aq after. Got the CD! Wooo! 'A HEADBANGER'S JOURNEY' Ohh yeah!
Should be watching it with bro. u-huh.

So yeah.. that pretty much it for the day.
Oh yeah.. Msged Deelah. Nadira too . Too bad Nad was out with her fam so.. yeah, dont wanna disturb her.

~Mustakim
04, NO difference.
Oh, those pics made me wonder.
" I'm actually losing something that is very important to me. Yes, losing."
yep, those pics made me say that.
beautiful though. heh.
Oh, words could not describe how i feel like, right now.
Aint this bullshit?

so I would just say good bye.

I left alone.

After Friday Prayers with the usuals. Felt really really good.

Went home soon after. Faris tagged along. Back home, changed and head to Bugis.
accompanied faris to do his what ever at his aunt's shop.
Then.. of to get the shirt that i've been wanting. Yeap, thats the shirt. (the pic above)
$20 sia!

Dinner, then met Namirah =)
Finally mira! get to meet each other. I know ur tired. But hey, we've met now. Like finally yeah.

Oh yeah, New friend.. Your really great to talk to.
Keep talking =) Meet u 2moro or something?

~MUSeTAKIM
day 3, no improve still. Bloggy, this is unfair.
Trying to change, tried to change. Changed.
Not appreciated. Oh well..

I got that shirt! Like finally.
More pls =D

Spades..

Fun day I must say. Adib's laguhter kills. Ron sings every five minutes.
Classes were great.
Passed Chem, like any cares. Hah. Flung Phy.
I got like 47 in total. Improvement i must say. So.. Maintain for Chem, study a lil more for Phy.

Math, irritating. Gets confusing u know.
What ever it is, im so gonna pass math.

DnT, bend my back piece today. Filed my support piece. Yet to bend it though.
Just a lil worried that Mrs Lee wouldnt accept it. So, Mrs Lee.. Get well soon!
No voice. Ugh..
Without you in school means.. We can't finish our Artefact! *gulp*



He's the friend of the beast!


AS pernormal, the gonc crew lepak-ed at The Toilet.
A Pic, part of the crew. Hah!


Gay-ing in the toilet.


Yes we are!




I've learn something today. What ever it is, no matter how down u feel. How hurt u are, How sucky ur day is. Everthing, brothers are always there to help you.
=p
Seriously, they can make u smile without even trying.

Who needs to express stuff? Who needs to talk to parents? Who needs to talk to the chickas?
What do they know? They won't understand.
haha!

Oh!
To Khid.
Bro, I feel u. I know it must be hard for you. But like i Always say to you. Chill. Let it go.
U can never bottle up that feeling. Yes, shits are bombarding in every corner. But dude, like this post is trying to explain, Friends are the best. Dont ya think so too?

~Mustakim
day 2. Still no sign of improvement.
It actually became worst.
What to do.. It takes two to play.
But not responsive.
haha...

bleah..

From a good start to a bad one.
Friends aint giving a shit.
Buddies doin nuthin.
Chicks keep adding.
The bruises and the knee aint helping.

You can be the death of me.
Your squeezing the life out of me. =/

here again.

Oh, enjoy the Song.

am I one?

Pretty much played cards the day today. American ace and stuff.. Getting the hang of it.
Listening at 4.15. Gosh, i think i did bad. Just enough to pass. Oh well.. It's done anyways.

Oh and thanks for the support 4E's peeps. U know who u are. Yes, it felt shitty. Even though im used to it for like 5 years.. I never knew this would ever occur. Oh well, known that person very well. What to do..
And thanks again.

To Adikku syg. Hah.
Shocking wasnt it? Even I could not believe it. I still could not accept the fact that i was hit hard by those words. haha.. Whatver it is.. Thanks yea sis.

Well, I've to get back to my Folio. By hook or by crook, i still got to do it.
Prelims, Yay!

~Mustakim
I tried talking.
You wouldnt reply.
Noon, i tried again.
To no avail? As u were sad or shocked or whatevr.
Why don't i know? Cause we hardly talk now.
Nothings the same, a million empty faces.
.....
have I really became my own nightmare?

survived.

Had soccer today.
Went Kembangan for a rematch aginst Hasyir's JC dudes.
Field was wet sia.. Puddles everywhere. The ball could not even travel.
I played as Last man. Have to. Not enough players uh..
Still, i had a great time and.. Was defending quite well. Oh, till one of the dude came for the ball when i had hold of possesion. I tapped the ball away and he intentionally came ina nd banged *sounds wrong* my knee. Fucking pain sia.. He claimed that he was goin for the ball. Eh, Go for ball need to use full body ar? Fuck la...

Took a lil rest.. soon after, half time. 0-0 was the score.
Thx Hazzy for the ice. Helped stopped the swelling. In the end, i played Keeper. Holy toot. Lucky it was a small goal post.
Total of 3 saves. haha.. Pretty boring uh, they couldnt attack. But we've got to hand it to em, they played with passion.
at abt the 80th minute, we scored!

Oh yeah. Then i switched to right back. Fun, i think i bodied this big guy too hard. Damn.. ahah..
Manage to do some intercepts. FUN!!

fall back into

Maidens' match tomorrow.
Let us have our revenge. We shall be victorious.
LOL.
Let's just do our best Guys.

Im playing at the battle front. *Gulp* I hope ill lead by example? tough luck Mus...
Let's Go VIRGINS! hahaha...

~MUSeTAKIM

Im like saying, OMG finally. Jammed today. Holy shit! Wooo!

With khid and a new member. Bradly, bassist. Covering for Muse.

Fuck yeah!

Ok, i still suck though. But i don't care. Finally, I got like a Band and covering Muse.

Khid ur skilss are wicked. Bradly, u saved Our soul. Keep on working!

I promise to be a better drummer.

~MUSeTAKIM

Ok, that's all. Oh wait!

2Moro, to chalet?

Sunday, Soccer?

I hope i dont make a fool of my self at the battle front. If I do, sorry guys.

a whole lot of Period.

Is it just me or the whole cohord of NBSS teachers had PMS today?
Vent the angers!

Morning.
As I was walking towards the parade sq for assembly, Mr Lim had to be THE good teacher. " Adik, can walk faster or not" That was what he said with a face.
Wtf? Hey was I like taking a stroll back there? You, do you have to give me a face? Idiot pervert teacher. Shit you, we know a lot abt u Mr lim. Alot.
U know me rite guys. I Know and get lots of info.
Advise, Mr Lim, better keep ur comments to urself. This Indie boy is pretty dangerous. In a sense.

Parade Sq.
After that Tak Perlu shits from Mr Lim, i made my way with a slumber face which i showed Lim and joined my class. As soon as I came there, I placed my bag down and sat.
Immediately, Mrs Leong blew me off.
"Mustakim, face the front!"
Hey, come on. I jsut arrive and just sat. JUST. U get me? JUST. Like for 2 seconds. You had to raise ur voice?
Soon after, she showed sort of attitude.
"where's ur thermometer!"
So, as a GOOD student, i rememberd one of her sayings. If u can't beat the system, join it. Oh, also.. It takes TWO to clap.
So yeah...
I raised my shoulders and said, " dont know. At home i think"
So yeah, two can play in this game Mrs Leong.

So I was upset. Duh. For reasons uknown I was being 'lectured' by two teachers. And its like just after the other.
So the whole day i was Fucking quiet and moody. If u were me, believe me.. U will blow up.
Friends keep asking me why i was sooo quiet and moody. Fuck la.. I just kept quiet.
Sorry ya guys.
Thanks for caring.

Oh yeah, then Mrs Fong was like all nagging at the falg pole, scolding here and there.. raised voice.. Irritated face. And s he even scold the Dude doing the flag. God knows why man..

Whats wrong witht he school today?
First it was Mr Lim, Mrs Leong, Mrs Fong the VP then Cikgu Salleh and Also Mr Subash.
Gaah.. Wanna say Period cannot.. got guys.. Then for Vp, i dont even know if she still have em.

Morale of the story, follow what school teaches you.
It takes two to clap.
DAMN right.

With lots of love, teenage mindset and middle fingers...
FUCK u school. FUCK u teachers... seriously.

NBSS, School of hope. Pfft, HOPELESS.

andai...

Im like 50% done with D&T woo!
NOT! Other schools are like.. Done with their Jobs.
and here, NBSS students are. only doing their job.
Never mind. This DnT guy is gonna finish my job in less then a week.
I hope. No! I am.. I will. I just got to.

Prelims are like fucking near. The heat! Come on guys. Now is the time to study. Seriously.
If u guys think u still got time and what ever. Then.. It is TRUE. But do this for your own sake.
Calculate urself. Think abt it. If ur aiming to go poly, take ur best 5 subs and add em. DO IT.
If u cant even get a 26, then best of luck. Coz i counted, and im likely to get 26. Wth? Yes now I AM AFRAID ok.. I have applied for DPA. I don't know if i can get in.
creative media, SP
Digital media, SP
Moving Images, TP

Either one of em. And i will be a happy dude. Still, Im praying hard to get it Creative media lah..
14 pts sia! For goodness sake.
Prelims, ur scaring me. O level, ur killing me. Wait, us.
U, a piece of paper made the youth of Singapore go crazy.
Do u know that? Of coz u don't.
Im sure many seniors agree with me.

~MUSeTAKIM
Wooo! let the stress hit u.

tiring edits.

Yeah, this is the very best ive come up with.
How does it look?

Did some editing. Looks kinda cool huh?
I have this feeling to... Make em into shirts.
Should I?

So guys, tell me ur opinion.
1 - Are those edits nice?
2 - Should I make em into shirts?
3 - If yes, where?

Thanks!

~Mustakim

Saturday

Went out with Azie Hazzy Nazzy. *nazzy? wth*
Yeah, Zura's birthday.
Will upload pics and talk abt this 2moro or when i get the pics from Zura.


Man.. ANY1 buy my buckle! haha..
Shopping by end of the week.
Swimming 2moro with Hot bod, Doll and rock chick. And their buddy too, Ika. I think.


~musEtakim

Get that shirt!
EarPiece.
Jamm with Hot bod!
Save up Museey!

any takers?

Selling a Metallica belt buckle.

New!

Starting price $35, negotiate.

Youth Oral?

Youth day celebrations. Something new. Nvr did we had a chance to come in school in home clothes. my choice? As indie-ish as possible.


So yeah. It's just a normal school day.
After studies, camwhore?



With The Tall Eurasion and my Doll. dont mind my gay-face.


Fasha.



Farah.

After school, meet some friends. talk for awhile. Meet Mr Alvin for the Sailing pics. Sailors, if u read this adn u wanna buy the sailing pic, come find me. wooo...

Yeah, after school.
Vainity of men.



Yeah, told ya. But hey, at least we don't complain.

After all that, Rashid and I proceeded to the hall to have our Mt o lvl Oral.
Shucks..
Well, it's not that bad. Abt books?
U may think that.. How easy can a conversation be with books as a topic.
Well, yes it's easy. But not that easy when they tweak the questions.
;)

Merit? Hah!

~MUSeTAKIM
And Fasha's like a potato

believe me

So I, wait. Make that the whole class have lots to do today. Eng ss and their relavant subs.
it's 11.37 and i have just completed my eng compo. Woo.
K what ever.
Youth day celebrations tomorrow. gaah! Dejavu! Damn, nvr knew i t would work with blogger too.
Navalites are given the choice to wear the uni or homie. For me, im wearing home clothes. Cool man, took 5 years for this shit. Then come Racial harmony? I can't wait for Teachers day. ^^
Let's picture tomorow. School, filled with many different colours or.. a school filled with skinnies?
Planning to wear skinnies though. Bet there will be posers wearing em. Half red and black. Gaah..
Wanna go as indie-ish as possible but... Due to the lack of hair, what to do..
speaking of school, the numbers has increased. The number of posers in the school that is. Hah.

Oh yeah, Mt Oral for O' Lvl tomorrow. Yikes?
I dont feel anything for now. Well, i sure will after friday prayers.
Hope for the best. Wooo!

~MUSeTAKIM
Shit, what's happening. Please let this be temporary.
Over reacting? Maybe huh. Let's just pray.
:\

not to stand in your way.

After playing base and moving to drop. It was fun. pe lesson, goin into the basics. Beginning to enjoy badminton. Hah.
Classes was fun. Learned things, completed SS! ! subject down. Time to revise For it though. Should I go for Venice?
Math extra lesson, did some worksheet thingy. Seriously need to practice.
and yadayadayada..

Went back home with Khid-do. Dumbo, ur Journal was in the bus dammit.
Yeah bro! Limelight? 5 years huh.. Wait, remember P.6? Good times ey. agogo!
Oh, still need to get that thing you know.
And yes bro. Unbelievable. Still, we can't jump to conclusions. No wories Khid, u know me.
We'll get to the bottom of this. Stat.
In the mean time. Keep Strumming! \m/

To another bro, Shid!
Chill aite, i know i say chill alot. You and many other people are getting sick of that word huh.
I'll help ya. No worries.

Month of July, many things are gonna happen.
Good stuffs, bad too?
well, shit happens.
Damn, I gotta save Cash.

~Mustakim
Two faced, fuck it.
Could'nt believe it.
Chose not to believe it.
really now?